Friday, 12 February 2010
I wonder if it's a way of dealing with current uncertainties: I've really thrown myself into doing a lot of walking lately. I thought I wouldn't be fit enough, following a lot of beer drinking in December, and a lot of coughing and spluttering in January.
Last night, for example, I was going out to an event in town, which started around 8pm. I decided I would walk: the direct route would normally take about an hour and twenty minutes. I set off around 20 past six, but I went a hugely indirect route which took me in exactly the opposite direction for a good half an hour or so. Uphill, downhill, I maintained a fairly constant, fast pace: I wonder how my speed compared to those people who do power-walking or whatever it's called, where they look like they're wiggling their hips in a funny way.
At one point I looked at my watch, having walked quite a way since the last time I'd looked: a mere minute had passed, but I'd covered a lot of distance, making it feel like several minutes should have elapsed. Finally I got to the venue, around 5 past 8, having charged along a pied for almost an hour and three quarters: I didn't even feel tired, more like I had enabled the dissipation of nervous energy (or something like that).
Similarly, earlier in the week, I walked a route which normally takes just under 2 hours - I finished it in less than 1 hour 40.
The current uncertainties I refer to are, in the main, work-related. Not negative uncertainties either - it's more about change, which should be beneficial at least to some degree. Nonetheless, the very fact of change brings tension, and I presume such tension is what's serving to propel me.