Thursday, 29 October 2009

Tired but

I had a long day at work yesterday, I didn't get through my door until midnight precisely. It wasn't a bad day by any means, but tiring due to the sheer number of hours involved.

Today I knew I had plenty of things to do, but I also know what I'm like when I'm tired. I'd expected that the day would drag and that my various coping skills and ability to deal with situations would be diminished and that I would wallow in my lack of energy. Also that I would put many things off until sometime later (as in, not today).

The alarm went off this morning, and in the immediacy of that moment it felt like I made a snap decision: just get up and do what you need to do - starting now - or let the day go to waste through sheer avoidance. I chose the former. I hate the phrase I'm about to use,'s amazing what you can do when you put your mind to it.

I'm not saying I had a day of massive achievements or anything like that. Because I didn't. But I got into work early and faced all the things I actually had time to deal with today: interestingly I felt like there was less pressure on me with regard to a particular situation, one which would normally be playing on my mind. I left work later than usual as well.

What I am actually saying, is that it's encouraging to me to know that I can be just as capable (more so, is what it feels like on the strength of today) in circumstances in which it would be understandable if I allowed myself not to make the effort.

Tired as I am, it's a source of comfort.


Fire Byrd said...

you know the expression.... ask a busy person if you want something done.... it works doesn't it!

trousers said...

I honestly didn't know (or definitely don't remember) that expression, FB - but yes, it makes perfect sense today of all days :)


lakeviewer said...

I agree with Byrd. The more you have to do, the more you succeed doing.

Zhoen said...

Know the feeling. Sometimes it's just a matter of doing the job in front of you, and not thinking about how much you don't want to do it first.

trousers said...

lakeviewer and Zhoen - you'd think (or I would assume you'd think) that, on the cusp of my 5th decade, I would know stuff like this as being elementary. On some levels it is, but the particulars that I've alluded to in this post feel like something new or at least unfamiliar, I'm not sure why. Maybe it's the particular collision of circumstances, or maybe it's other circumstances which are informing my particular viewpoint.

Clearly, I'm not sure: but I'm taking note.

Janette Jones said...

I love it when you have days like this, unfortunately they happen few and far between for me!

Sophia said...

I totally get what you're saying and feel like that at times. It's not always easy, but you get through it. Some days...I have no IDEA what motivated me to get what I needed to get done....well, done. :)

Hope you have a good weekend.

trousers said...

Well same here Janette - it's partially about inertia I suppose. Once you're moving, it's easier to carry on moving..

Thanks Sophia. It can be odd to look back at certain times and think, how on earth..?